With Love, J. Sheppard

Pride.

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I’ve made effort to be a woman a man would be proud to be with. Like I’ve worked extremely hard to develop me and be someone I’m proud to be… and I think bc I was made to feel in my previous relationships like they weren’t proud to be with me… that physically, mentally, and accomplishment wise, I had to further become… and I often still feel that way so there’s this ever revolving door of what else can I do to be better you know? 

So now… I meet men and I won’t show them off. I won’t post them on social media. I won’t push to date… I’m not really talking about them to my friends… or even uncovering the fact that I am seeing someone but I struggle to feel proud to be with these men. And I don’t think it’s because of what they look like, but more so because of the treatment or the lack there of. So my question to myself: what does a man have to do or how does he have to treat me for me to feel proud to be with him? 

Looking back on it, I think I was hesitant to put this last one out there because, I knew my circles would never accept him and that mattered to me. Fast forward, I made the right call.