Two sides of a paradigm is a real construct that should be explored. It’s like on one side, you can very much process: cool as a boyfriend but unreliable choice for a husband. And then on the other side you can still feel unready to let him go.
And that’s what this feeling is. Like you’re stuck in between two different paradigms. Two different realities. Two moments in time.
And it’s like, you just wish all of you would pick a side… but you’re stuck in motion. Ready for this whole process to move forward.